There has been a lot of obstacles through this first semester of college. When I was being brought up by my parents, they always told me that I shouldn’t be anybody else but myself. Since the end of my Junior year I have changed… I have grown a lot, but with that I have backed up in my shell. The smiley, always joking around me was not there anymore. I would have spurts of it, but I was never consistent in my actions. That is a huge deal do me.
I didn’t realize that I had changed so much until today. One of my good guy friends went to visit his home for the weekend, but on sunday when he wasn’t back I thought it was a little weird. Yesterday I asked one of his friends if he was alright, and he just looked at me and said, “I’m not supposed to tell anybody.” Right then I knew it was bad. He began to tell me that my friend was not okay, and that it was bad. I began to worry so much. I texted him and told him I was praying and thinking about him, but he didnt answer. I sent him another text today, and he actually replied. He told me that he had to spend 72 hours in a mental institution…. he didn’t say why, but I can think of a few things and it scares me. I don’t like to see a friend is so much pain. The day that he left for home I saw him and he was very depressed… I wasn’t the nice me that I usually was, and it sparked something that made me realize that every one of my actions could and will affect someone around me. I want it to affect them in a good way.
If you don’t like someone for no reason… You’re dumb as fuck.
If you don’t like them because they did something that you thought was weird… You’re a dumb fuck. Get to know who they are.
If you don’t like them because they did something to someone else…. You’re a dumb fuck who needs to stay out of peoples business. Get to know them for real.
If they hurt you… You have a reason not to like them.
You never know how one action will hurt someone so badly until it happens. If I would have known that I would have hurt you this bad, I would have never started things with you. I never would have done what I did. There are no excuses for what I have done. All I can do is learn from this, and never hurt anyone else like I hurt you. It’s not fair that it happened to you… That it took me fucking up for me to realize my problems. I’m sorry and I wish you the best. You are a great person.
So very sorry
If you have a friend that gets super drunk… lets be honest… you ARE NOT going to get any kind of sleep unless you’re drunk as fuck too. Guess I’m the lucky bastard not drunk enough.
Holy shit show…. That is what this night is all about. When you get a group of girls together to drink alcohol… Lesbehonest…. Not a pretty sight. haha Can I get a WHAT THE FUCK!? I will never be a lesbian, and I will always feel uncomfortable around lesbian shit. NO I DO NOT WANNA KISS YOU. Who do you think I am. Anyways…. have a nice thirsty thursday! Drink up.
What the fuck are you looking at bitch…?
Oh she’s watching bridesmaids! I love that movie…
I don’t like this song…. I don’t like this on either… fuck…
When will this shit end….?
I wonder if they can tell I’m doing nothing…
Yeah… I really hate her…
She looks tired.
Did I just fall asleep?….. Shit… Fuck I have a damn mark on my face.
Can we be done already?
Stop looking at me and smiling…
I feel like death… shit…. and fuck all at the same time.
My butt hurts.
Coach is packing up her stuff!….. damn it she was getting another damn book.
Oooooo I like this song… =)